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[29 Jan 2004|06:28pm]
So.. new livejournal:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/sweetlolita/

add me there. I swear to god, I'll try and post this time around. x) and beware of the layout. it may cause seizures.
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[24 Oct 2003|04:22pm]
hum. stole this from Jess' lj. Thought I'd post it since it seems 9/10 kids with journals pretend to be depressed and think suicide is cool. dude. It's cool in fiction, but not in practice.

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Suicide is NOT Painless

You have decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out...

Before you kill yourself, here are some things you should know. Before you act, consider these facts:

1. Suicide is not usually successful. You think you know a way to guarantee it?

Ask the 25 year old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived...but both his arms are gone.

2. What about jumping?

Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leaped from a building. Now, he is brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog, but, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.

3. What about pills?

Ask the 12 year old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It is a hard way to go.

4. What about a gun?

Ask the 24 year old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm, and has no vision or hearing on one side. Fortunately, he lived through his "foolproof" suicide.

You might too.

But...

Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your body after you drowned?

Your mother?

Your wife or husband?

Boyfriend or Girlfriend?

Your son?

Your daughter?

The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain. Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at that 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now. You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. Call somebody. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away...

You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it?

Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.

***please post this in your journals as well***
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[06 Oct 2003|03:45pm]
It's official. Me and Danika are the biggest dorks ever of all time. We are doing CHEMISTRY. While singing THE BADGER SONG and talking about 1776 THE MUSICAL. OH YES.


too cool for you.
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[28 Sep 2003|07:01pm]
this is the last one, I swear. on Maya Angelou and Amy Tan:

katakikitty: damn tangelo.

katakikitty: .. tangelo. wtf am I on.

SilentBeatnik: TANGELO

SilentBeatnik: LOL

SilentBeatnik: The brilliant author Aya Tangelo, who writea bout being a Chinese American in teenage society and the struggle of African Americans
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[28 Sep 2003|04:45pm]
Liii teaches me about the non importation act:

SilentBeatnik: seriously it was like this:
America: Jesus england wtf is your problem?? KNOW WHAT I'm not talking to you leave me alone kthnx"
England: Oh yeah like I care. Don't even come near me. I'll kill you if you do.
France: Wtf are you doing england you suck now both of you leave me the hell alone.

SilentBeatnik: seriously they were all like "*CLOSE PORTS* don't come iiiiinnn"

SilentBeatnik: "And then england was all like "no you don't" and america was like "oh you better believe dat"
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[13 Sep 2003|05:22pm]
Get the song 'Du Hast' by Rammstein, and play it while looking at this: http://www.gainax.co.jp/img/kubifuri.gif

Just do it.

Anywho. Went to the mall. I had chicken and was molested by a stranger. It was fun and hyper and yay. And I don't feel like typing anything else.
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[12 Sep 2003|05:18pm]
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JEFF.

now buy me porn.

.....
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[03 Sep 2003|04:09pm]
...I believe I mentioned that my friends suck, yes?

Pelanaka: Shake yo' ass on that dance flo', biatch. Shake it high and shake it lo.
katakikitty: c_c;
Pelanaka: Sorry, I had a GANGSTA moment.
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[02 Sep 2003|03:02pm]
My friends suck.

NeatoBurrito86: Whore.
katakikitty: Slut.
NeatoBurrito86: Bitchtit.
katakikitty: omfg.
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[30 Aug 2003|12:40am]
I think I hate friends-only journals most of all things.

Not the ones that seriously want to be private to all but friends, but the ones with requirements. Ones with a list of things they want you to be before you add them to your friends list. You can't like this, or dislike that. They had to make it this way, you know. They had so many people before. They grew tired of their overwhelming popularity, of course. Surely, you must be hurt. But if you are what they want, you, too, can read about them as they go about life. You, too, can be part of their joy, if you are not too stupid or too ugly or too pink. It doesn't matter if you're they're friend; if you're this, you can read.

It's as if they believe that they are that special, that interesting, that their life is that compelling, that we should be fumbling to become their friend.

But I don't care if they want to limit who sees their journal.

I find elitism boring.
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[29 Aug 2003|03:42pm]
Ahh school. @__________@d 4l/3jrt5 96tu5464 5q6y54

....

Ok, so it really wasn't that bad. I have friends littered about all my classes, except for study-- which is good. Study is meant for work, reading, and sleep. Friends seem to help you do anything but.

English and Math look to be my most challenging subjects. The first day of English went completely over my head, half due to how fast he went through it all, and half because of my own refusal to wake up or comprehend. But by the next day I figure out he was trying to teach us rhetoric, which is a fun word to say, and not that boring to learn about.

Leigh is cooler than my mom.

Today I went to the church for a yard sale. Which is.. so very not me. I felt so cool. XD I saw brass bed. It made me think of Liz.

Brendon is a whore who doesn't read my livejournal. Ahaha. >D
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[21 Aug 2003|10:32pm]
Went to NYC today with the family. It was fun, even if it smelled a bit funny. XD

We basically wandered around stupidly for the entire day. Seriously.

....

I wish I was kidding.
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[19 Aug 2003|03:25pm]
My day 1 schedule for next year:

1. Pre Calc; Cox
2. Chemistry; Sargent [Got this fixed, finally]
3. English; Osgood
4. History; Murdoch
5. Study because they couldn't put me in creative writing. *grumbles*
6. Band
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FLnh43i9qu5t93gkop5u504-684 [19 Aug 2003|02:02am]
You know you've been online too long when you read "Sweet Potato" as "Perry Como".
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[12 Aug 2003|06:24pm]
Just saw 'Pirates of the Caribbean' for the second time. XD; I will never get sick of that movie (see: Jack Sparrow).

School starts too early.. so many things yet to do. So many promises I made at the end of last school year; all unfulfilled.

About two weeks and counting. Lord save me.
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[06 Aug 2003|02:17pm]
Ahh... I killed my space bar. @____@;
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[06 Aug 2003|01:45pm]
shounenaifiend: I wouldn't be the priest that rapes little boys... I'd be the priest that rapes full-grown men after bringing them down with my super-duper-Catholicism-karate-chop.

Ah, family.
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hm. [05 Aug 2003|01:49pm]
So, I never post anything, and yet, people comment. Do you enjoy commenting? Does it make you happy?

I am not dead. That is good.

I am not posting. That is bad..?

Alright then. Either way.

Since I last told anyone of anything, so much has happened. Notably, I met Kim for the first time-- my oldest online friend. We've only been talking since I was in 6th grade, it was about time. XP We flailed about Boston, scaring pigeons. Too bad we couldn't go to the aquarium to see the penguins. :x

So yeah. Going to New York next week. Should be fun, if very scary. I'm not sure just what I'm going to do; I have no money to shop and no interest in 'ground zero'.

FLCL is on Cartoon Network, now. Will someone please explain this to me? I just cannot fathom this at all. o_o

Danika, you are a whore.

That is all.
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[23 Dec 2002|05:47pm]


There. I deleted nearly all my journal entries.

Thing is, I can't remember why I started to in the first place.

:/
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[20 Sep 2002|10:50pm]
[ mood | lethargic ]
[ music | Incubus - Stellar ]



I felt like writing, so I decided to try out the Instant Muse Story Starter. Here was mine:

"My main character/protagonist is a male. My main character is a priest/priestess. An archetype present in my story is Hangman/Executioner. A key object or symbol in my story is a sequined dress. My story will be set in the distant future. My story is about evolution."

I tried really hard to make it fit, but it kind of doesn't. n_x; So, here it is:


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Her hair fell in matted strings to the wood beneath her, skin sliding and grating against the grunge she kneeled on. The platform screamed murder as a lone figure climbed their steps, its boots thick with dirt and weight. It stood tall over her, between the glare of the sun and her down turned face, a dark, genderless being of impartial and unbiased justice, robe billowing and mask expressionless. It stopped inches from where the young girl curled, bound at her back with ragged rope; her skin was raw and passing sanguine where it had touched down.

All the while, Father Behrent watched, stiffly, to the side, gripping his Bible in his moist palms. His breath was slow, and broken; his throat parched; his eyes were glossy and out of focus. From beside the girl, the robed one turned to those that stood before the makeshift stage, staring up with their curious, lustful eyes; they came for one reason only, to satiate the urge for vengeance, for justification. And the masked figure before them fed them this, as its deep, sonorous voice bellowed the various sins of the child, the heathen, the daughter of the devil.

Behrent couldn't make out the words. Not that he need to, since they were the same, day after day. The condemnation dulled to a low bass thrum, and his eyes rolled over the scene, as detached and apathetic as God himself. The muddy faces of the peasants melted into one pulsating mob of savagery and dirt, with the executioner, raising its arms to the heavens as it spoke, their dominant one, their tribal monarch, working them into a throbbing frenzy of bloodlust, excitement. Then there was movement from behind the speaker-- the damned girl was glancing up, shifting her legs.

He caught her eyes for a moment as she peered over at him, and held them there. Even as she trembled physically, her eyes spoke volumes of another person. Her eyes said, Live; her eyes said, Pray; her eyes said, Love. Beneath the foul, torn clothing she wore, and the unkempt, greasy hair that rolled out over her arched back, was a different person altogether. A person to who death was inevitable, a person to whom dignity was infallible. The very spirit of her people, her gods and goddesses and ethics, was buried within that frail case, that lay beaten, violated, emotionally raped.

The leader had stopped speaking, and now turned dramatically, as the masses thronged and cheered. A powerful, gloved arm shot out from the folds of its gown, and grasped the child by her hair, pulling her sharply upwards, so that her shins barely graced the floor, her back curved, and her pale neck was bared to the pack. Now Behrent saw the nervousness of the girl's mortal body in vivid detail. Her strained neck constantly rolled with gulps and sobs, as a sequined dress of sweat, salt, and blood glinted sharply in the dying sun. The thunderous screams of the mob grew as she hung there, the bottom of her hair stained pink at its roots, and the executioner shouted something intelligible and meaningless to them, which they replied to with more shouts, more jeers.

Now was Behrents time. He moved slowly, languidly towards the girl, standing between her and the crowd. His right hand moved in a mechanical sign of the cross over the chest of the silently writhing girl, and he murmured a prayer, any prayer. She was a heathen after all, and probably cared less than he. Behind him, the onlookers grew eerily silent, watching like scavengers awaiting the death of a wounded animal.

"You are a heretic, a heathen, a blasphemer," Behrent spoke, just barely loud enough to be heard. "The Church of Our Lord condemns you to death for your sinful past, your sinful present, and your sinful existence. How do you plead, in the eyes of our Lord, the one, true, God?"

The girl's dry mouth flapped open, her dull eyes locking onto his jaw, as if tired of staring above it. A strangled noise, natural for a person such held, rasped for a moment, before she swallowed thrice, and spoke, her jagged voice cutting through the anticipation strung in the air.

"How can you watch me die and still live yourself?"

Now she met his eyes again, the flicker that he had seen in them before having already died, leaving nothing more than colored emptiness. He prayed softly over her once more, and stepped back from her.

"I have watched you die a thousand times before, but I will never let myself watch again."

He made a waving gesture at the executioner, and at once the crowd roared fiercely; there was to be a death today! The girl was crying now; he heard her cries as he turned away, and lethargically climbed down the stairs, slipping and shoving his way through the crowds. Even though he could hear each sound from the rise, the reaction of the crowd told him all he needed to know about what happened in his wake. The executioner had drawn its dagger to the girl's pulsing throat, pressing it gently, as always, to the bluish stain of her vein. And, like the last hundred, thousand, ten thousand times, it allowed her to scream and beg for forgiveness, all of her strength and attitude sucked out of her the minute she could feel the cold of steel on her skin. It was always the same.

But Behrent never stayed. He simply tucked his Bible beneath his arm, and walked out from the town square, his boots clicking solemnly on the stone streets.

He had watched her die a thousand times before, and, as he heard the cheers rising above the rooftops, her watched her die a thousand more.

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